In Need of Music

Ok. Im needing some really really really really awesome worship songs. Like, really. Anything that just blows your mind away I guess. LET ME KNOW PLEASE!
:)

Turn to God

I have found that in this time in my life, I need to turn to God. Not to my friends, although they have wisdom, but to Him. Because no matter what they say about my relationship with Him, it really isn't up to them, is it? Me and God have to find that one out. And honestly, I dont think there's a secret formula to it. I think it's whatever you can do to connect with God the best. No matter what that is. and I'm not posting this to offend ANYONE, because that's not what I'm trying to do AT ALL. I value all the advice i've been given, and because of that advice I've come up with this conclusion. Off to find Him, because that's all that matters.

Breathe Into Me

And this is how it feels when I ignore the words you spoke to me

And this is where I lose myself when I keep running away from you

And this is who I am when, when i don't know myself anymore

And this is what i choose when its all left up to me

Breathe your life into me!

I can feel you

I'm falling, falling faster

Breathe your life into me!

I still need you

I'm falling, falling

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

And this is how it looks when I am standing on the edge

And this is how I break apart when I finally hit the ground

And this is how it hurts when I pretend i don't feel any pain

And this is how I disappear when I throw myself away

Breathe your life into me

I can feel you

I'm falling, falling faster

Breathe your life into me

I still need you

I'm falling, falling

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

Breathe your life into me

I can feel you

I'm falling, falling faster

Breathe your life into me

I still need you

I'm falling, falling

Breathe into me

Breathe your life into me!

I'm falling, falling faster

Breathe you life into me!

Falling, falling, falling

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

Breathe into me

This song came on my ipod today, when I was just trying to block out the world and get on with life. I have always loved this song, but today I LISTENED to the words. Let them sink in. When life gets you down and you feel like not getting up again, TURN TO GOD! He will give you the strength to keep going! I don't want to just "get on with life". I want to LIVE! Breathe into me! Needless to say I feel MUCH better now :)

Besides, when life knocks you down to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray.

Sweet ride

found a car i dig. new Ferrari. AWESOME. :)

Forgetfulness.

Have you ever found it frustrating that you had something in mind and then BAM! It's gone? Well, this was one of those instances. I came up with something to write in my blog, and it was good and then......gone. AHHH! So I'm sitting here thinking. OK...what was it? no, not that, no, no, no....for like 10 minutes. I can't remember it. So at this point its really bugging me. Well, one of my good friends was told me to pray about it and the words will come. Why didn't I think of that before?!

Well, I didn't come up with what i was planning to write. I'm sure it was pointless anyway.

God revealed to me something better :)

WE ARE SOO FORGETFUL! God, being the amazing God He is, NEVER forgets us. But so many days we go without just remembering to talk to Him, worship Him, seek Him, long Him, love Him, and so many other things. I mean, He's always there for us, but we are only there when it's convenient for us, and when we remember. Wow.

I know I want to be on fire for Him 24/7. period.

any thoughts?

Golf

AHH....What a great day for a golf tournament. NOT! I had all the makings for a crappy day at the course. Whoosh..

I had to get up this morning at 4:45!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! IT'S SUMMER!!!!!!!

We were late leaving the house.

Long drive to Wewoka Oklahoma, one in which i COULDN'T get comfy to go to sleep again.

Go to the one and only Sonic in town and get breakfast on my white pants. GREEEEAAAAT

Get to the "country club", check in, go to get a bucket of balls to practice only to find out that i have to sign in and tee of. awesome.

So me and my friend are walking to the #1 tee box when we are greeted by a SWARM of bugs. I guess we're just sweet like that....

It's so humid outside that i would rather it just rain and get it over with (and that's saying something bc I'm not a fan of playing golf in the rain).

Well, to many people, this would be the makings of the worst game of golf/ worst day of their lives kind of day. But today wasn't one of those days! I had an absolute BLAST!! I remember starting off my day praying "God, today I'm in a golf tournament, and I NEED some help! I'm putting today in Your hands, so what happens happens." And honestly, today didn't seem bad AT ALL. In fact, (not to brag but just to state...) I got 3rd today!! And my lowest score so far on 18 holes! So really, I'm pretty happy with the turnout. But I can't take the credit! I prayed all day, and you know what? My God came through. He heals people ANND helps them in golf tournaments. Pretty amazing!

Spider Bite

I remember when I was about 8 years old I got a spot behind my knee that kinda looked (and felt) like a mosquito bite. IT ITCHED SOOOO BAD!!! But it also really hurt to touch it. Weeeelll....I told my mom about it, and she told me not to touch it. Of course, it itched so i wasn't NOT going to scratch it! *Sigh*. That was a REALLY stupid choice :)

In a matter of days I was SUPER sick, and the "mosquito" bite on my leg? A black spot the size of a cantaloupe. Thank you Mr. Fiddle back.

ahhh....wow. Well, after going to the doctor, I found out that not only was it a spider bite, but it was an INFECTED spider bite. Nice going Jordan ;)

So what did I learn from all of this? Listen to what your parents say, it sometimes can be pretty darn helpful (and can keep you from having to amputate your leg). I'm pretty sure I learned my lesson....I had to take pills the size of my pinkie(SIIIIICK!!!) and I left for church camp sick as a dog. Good thing I didn't barf, the people on the bus prob. wouldn't appreciate that much ;)

OH! OK...my dad reminded me of a part of the story i left out :) sooo here we go!

When I was a little younger, I had some sort of infection in my left hip. Weird, I know...but still! Well, I ended up having to take these pills and the insurance covered it and all that jazz. Well, for some reason, our insurance would no longer cover my left leg. So my whole body is insured EXCEPT for my left leg. I mean seriously?! So if I break a leg, it CAN'T be the left one...lol. Well, the spider bite was on the right leg, but they said it was on the left. You can only imagine what happened THEN.....lol

God is here!

WOW!!! OK, so tonight at church i was just BLOWN AWAY by God and the message and worship and WOW! It was just sooo, sooo, AMAZING! I don't really have words to describe how I feel right now. jeez. wow. OK. breathe. lol

ever felt this way?

Live Like You Were Dying

He said I was in my early forties, with a lot of life before me, when a moment came that stopped me on a dime.

I spent most of the next days, looking at the x-rays, talking 'bout the options, and talking 'bout sweet times.

I asked him when it sank in, that this might really be the real end. "Hows it hit'cha when you get that kind of news? Man, what'd ya do?" He said:

"I went skydiving, I went rocky mountain climbing, i went two point seven seconds on a bull named Fu Man Chu. And I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I'd been denyin'"

And he said "someday i hope you get the chance, to live like you were dyin'"

I love this song. It has such a great message in it that I love being reminded of. Life is short, and it's a gift from above(also a song :)) I know there are soo many things i would do if i knew i had a limit of time.

What is something you would want to do if you knew you were going to die?

Technology Today..

Its amazing how much technology has improved over the years. It just boggles my mind! I mean, I started writing this blog on my TV!!! MY TV!!! I'm still blown away by that fact. Woooow. lol. Everything keeps improving and getting better and better.

Well that's how our walk with God should be too. Getting better and better, closer and closer. But i have NOOO room to talk. I've made some stupid choices lately...and they've come with stupid consequences. BUT I'M GETTING THROUGH THEM AND LOOKING AHEAD TOWARDS THE LIGHT! uh..yeah that's all I got for now!!

Do you have anything in your life that you are looking ahead to get past? I would love to pray for ya!

Anti-HIV

Whatthe....yes, you are reading the heading correctly. Let me explain :)

Imagine you are at a Micro Mission with your church in a school cleaning a library, because it's needing some SERIOUS help. You go to a box of cleaning supplies in search of some heavy-duty stuff that will deteriorate the gum off the bookcases(and the occasional spider the size of Godzilla). You open the box, and what do you find? A spray paint-looking can that says "Top Gun, foaming solution". So I'm thinking OOHHHH MAN! This is what I've been looking for! So I'm looking to see if gum and spiders are on the list of things that it will clean, but they weren't on there!! I mean whats up with that?! ;) No, instead I found something much more interesting. It says: Kills HIV. Wow. I had to read it like 5 times before telling everyone that we've got the Noble in reach. It was the highlight of the day. Ahh...good times.

I absolutely LOVE Mission trips, no matter how big or small. They really make you think and take a step back from your life a little. Yeah, you may be going through hard times-who hasn't?-and life probably doesn't seem like a basket of roses, but we are SOOO blessed. We have so many things that we just take for granted, like being able to go to church or having a school with no bullet holes in the windows and bars on the outside. It is always so humbling for me to be able to help out people who really need it.

What do you enjoy doing that is "humbling" for you?

Cello

Another thought:

For those of you who don't know, I play the cello. I really love it! It's such an AMAZING instrument, and it has a beautiful sound. I've been playing since 6th grade, and I have no intention of stopping anytime soon!
I just recently switched from a 3/4 size cello to a full size cello, and there is a ENORMOUS difference! The only way I can describe it is from going from a little kid guitar with plastic strings to a Fender guitar with an Amp the size of a car. ;) Anyway the intervals between notes is VERY far, and I'm having a hard time getting it down.
NCHO(North Central Honor Orchestra) tryouts are coming up, and the music is as hard as ever. I was looking at the music tonight and trying to translate it into English when I realized "this is HARD! I'm NEVER going to get this!" It was at this frustrating moment that I realized that I couldn't get it, not by myself. So I prayed. "God, help me to get through this, because I can't do this without some help and motivation." It's so true! God is always there for you, no matter how small the task. He's never going to leave, and with Him, all things are possible. So my cello problems? Still there, but it's getting better.

Anything that you are struggling with that God has helped you to overcome?

What happens at camp, stays at camp....or not.

First off, I can tell that it is going to be a challenge for me to post every day like I should be doing. However, on the plus side, I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!! How's that for some motivation? Haha, :)

Over the last couple of days I have learned a few very important lessons. For example:

NEVER go to the movies with someone you know when their parents don't know about it. (I thought they knew but i guess not...)

Don't play 18 holes of golf around noon and not drink water(it doesn't work)

and as it turns out Don't answer your phone at 10:30 at night when your best friend is calling 100 miles away. Why? Drama.

I was minding my own business, reading in bed, when all of a sudden *ring ring* *ring ring*. Well, it's my best friend, so why wouldn't I answer, right? Wrong. Out of her frustration, I got involved in drama miles and miles away. By this time I'm not very happy. One, the chapter was really good, and it's now interrupted. Two, my best friend is in emotional pain, and all I can do is try to comfort her over the phone. Three, I knew I had to do something to set all the drama straight. So I made a few phone calls, got everything on my side sorted out, tried to calm down my friend (to no avail) and I even got to finish the chapter in my book.

The moral? Gossip is a nasty thing. It travels from person to person, getting worse and worse, until finally it's out of control. I was 100 miles away and I was involved in a matter of minutes! I know that I personally try not to gossip, but it's a definite struggle for me. I have to ask myself "is what I'm about to say going to hurt someone if passed on?" Something to think about.

Hey!

Well this being my first blog entry, I don't have much to talk about at this moment! I'm soo excited to see what's going to happen through talking with other "bloggers" like me!

I suppose I could explain my title...

I remember(as I'm sure many of you do too) when you were little spilling your "big kid" glass of milk all over the floor and EVERYWHERE. I mean, what's a 5 year old like me to do in a crisis like this anyway?! So of course, you search for something to clean it up with(like your mom's favorite dish towel) and it just makes everything worse. So what does every 5 year old do in a time like this? Of course, I cried. And cried. And cried! Around that time supermom comes and saves the day, saying "It's ok; don't cry over spilled milk."

This is usually the typical 5 year old story, but don't we find ourselves in that mindset sometimes too? Something seems too challenging, and we feel helpless because we can't do it. GUESS WHAT?! There is a God who is bigger than anything and everything, and we can do all things through Him. Plus, He's always there for us, so we are never alone. Why cry when everything is going to be ok? Why cry over spilled milk?